Survivor - K. Grant (Poetry)

AS I LIE BENEATH THE FIST THAT ONCE TOUCHED ME WITH WARMTH AND SECURITY I ASK WHY ME,,, WHY DID I HAVE TO CRY ,,AND THEN LIE ABOUT THE PAIN THAT YOU HAVE ENDURED IN ME,, THOUGH IVE ,,STRUGGLED WITH THE MIXED EMOTIONS ABOUT BEING SAD AND HAPPY,,ABOUT BEING SCARED AND LOVED ,,IVE REALIZED,, IF I DIDNT STOP TO REALIZE MY LIFE WAS MORE THAN ANYTHING YOU HAVE GIVIN ME,, I WOULD SOON BE FLYING TO THE PEARLY GATES ABOVE,,AND THAT WASNT GONNA BE ME IT WASNT MY TIME,, IT WAS MY TIME TO SHINE,, AND BE THE DIVINE PERSON,, THAT I HAVE ONCE BEEN,,AND ONLY THEN WOULD I FEEL THE LOVE THAT I SO DEEPLY LONGED FOR, ,FOR THEN I WOULD BE ABLE TO STAND UP AND BE ALIVE, ,AND SAY OUTLOUD THAT IVE SURVIVED ,,THE THINGS THAT IVE SURVIVED,, AND AS THIS PATH IS TEARIN AT MY HEART,, ITS A NEW START AT LIFE,,AND I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO THE COLD NIGHTS,, AND THE STEADY FIGHTS ,,THAT KEPT ME DOWN,,AND AS IAM ON THIS ROLLER COASTER OF LIFE ,,GOING DOWN, DOWN, DOWN,, IM DETERMINE TO GO UP, UP ,UP,, AND STAY UP THERE ,,AND NEVER HAVE TO CRY TEARS OF PAIN ,,OR USE GODS NAME IN VIEN,,FOR I HAVE MORE POWER THAN I EVER HAD BEFORE,, AND NOW OPPERTUNITIES IS KNOCKING AT MY DOOR,, SO NO LONGER WOULD I HAVE TO SAY WHY ME ,,BUT YES NOW IT IS ME,, TIME FOR ME TO BE LOVED ,,TO BE COMFORTED,, TO BE FREE,, LUCKY, LUCKY, LUCKY, ME ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,IM FREE